How selfhood begins with a walking away,
And love is proved in the letting go.
Cecil Day-Lewis, Walking Away
We have been observing the progress of a family of swallows in our barn for the last few weeks. Yesterday, the three young ones fledged. After spending many days squeezed into a small nest perched in the high ridge of the barn, today they are, well, as free as birds.
There are few things in the world like the flight of a swallow. Graceful, swift, effortless. The sky is like a canvas on which they were born to paint with silk-smooth strokes. I imagine that other birds—positively earth-bound by comparison—look on in amazement.
What a day for the parent swallows. That which has taken their every effort and constant attention has come to fruition. They are done. I wonder what they do for the remaining days of summer.
There are striking parallels between the nest and a home. The relentless daily work. The division of labor, when at all possible, between two parents. The seemingly endless needs and ever present dangers. Even the buildup of excrement, which at times the parents must simply haul away. And then the time of fledging, and the emptiness left behind, an enduring testament to the labor that was.
But the very strikingness of the parallels gives occasion to notice the difference even in the sameness. There is work, and then there is work—the human labor of love: a labor itself one of the highest exercises of life. Here is something astounding in its nobility; something that cannot and will not be forgotten; something that endures in profound and mysterious ways in that which it has wrought—in the laborers and those labored for.
An empty-nest home is never just an empty nest. The life that was shared here continues, even if directly and daily participated by fewer now. Indeed, even if only by one. God grant that in some way the fledged will return often, maybe to stay, or just to pass through, and perhaps rest awhile and be together. Again.
A home might be empty of young children. But it can always be full, for the labors and shared life are part of us, and of those who have gone on. Even now, and always. This was a work that in its inner core is never finished.
This morning after gazing on that empty nest and pondering, all of a sudden I heard something in the sky. Looking up, I spied five swallows flying together like there is no tomorrow. My eyes fill with tears. Enjoy this time dear swallows. We know not what tomorrow brings for you. But in our home we will try to live in hope, in the presence of shared things still yet to come.
Cecil Day-Lewis (1904-1972) was an Anglo-Irish poet laureate of Great Britain. ‘Walking Away’ is a poem about dropping off his son at school.
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Ha! We used watch the whole egg-to-fledge every year with our Carolina Wren birdhouse. We were constantly comparing it to our lives. We’ve since moved away, as our kids are grown, but the house may fill with another generation.
Another generation of wrens and another generation of children!
My empty nest is ever so full of memories. I shuffle between generations in need of my labors, grandchildren sitting, adult children emotional support, sibling happenings and aging mother’s medical runs. I savour in the moments of peace yet my mind tangles with the, should I read inspiration books or practice my latest Beethoven concerto on my violin. I am ever so grateful for the stuff and the noise but look so forward to being silent and contemplative in my prayer time.
I completely understand how you are torn, Elena. That you continue to give even while you long for silence is a great generosity. God bless all your labors.
Breathing Room
by D. V. Andrews
What will these empty rooms become?
Make one up for crafting,
Another, make a den.
And if there is one more
From whence your birds have flown,
Keep it made for guests
To sojourn in your home.
That is beautiful.
Thanks, Dr. Cuddeback. I have a ways to go to catch up to this professor and US Poet Laureate from my Alma Mater who also has some beautiful words relevant to your post;
“O swallows, swallows, poems are not
The point. Finding again the world,
That is the point, where loveliness
Adorns intelligible things
Because the mind’s eye lit the sun.”
From Howard Nemerov’s “The Blue Swallows” in his 1967 poetry collection of the same name by University of Chicago Press
Oh, this post touches on the hardest, roughest cross I think a parent bears in later years…..there is only a lump in my throat as I read it.
Only in His arms will we find the fullness that existed in the full house. Please pray for those who are making this transition –
Anonymous, Your words are very poignant. Yes, perhaps this is one of the most powerful ways the Lord draws our hearts to the next life. Let us remember in prayer all those making this transition… as well as all who suffer deeply from loneliness or isolation.